myspace is the new livejournal.

i have too much crap online
myspace
livejournal
a blog
portfolio site
plus a purchaced domain i havent done anything with yet.

been pretty busy lately
school, work, homework, friends, etc.

im getting more and more into video effects.
after effects, combustion, 3d studio max, maya.



its my birthday tomorrow
23, fuck...
freeze frame.
im old

23 was the age i couldnt imagine myself going over.
but now that ill be 23, ill push back the year to 26

once im 26, its all over and ill have to act my age

know whats awesome?
my new kick ass goldfish
named reyu
becuase hes a red and white ryukin

Ok i lied, this journal is redesigned and kinda kicking still.

since its been so long, i think i will clean out the friends page. and yeah this will be friends only. if anyone is interested in keeping up on here, let me know.

But i am now over here:

http://blog.rawideas.net

see you there.

this journal is kaput

well things change, quickly.
im in a constant transition from one area to the next.
trying to find my place post graduation.

after graduation i moved to michigan with my gf.
tried to settle in, and might have made it, almost got a good job.
but it didnt work out, things changed again,
im in buffalo, and i am now single.

rejected.

where do i go now? pittsburgh again,
pittsburgh is always the fallback
ill be moving back at the end of the month.
what will i do there? im not sure
maybe find a job, maybe go back to school.

i guess i can do whatever i want.

im really bored.

my website was featured on http://www.moluv.com on 6/25/2004!
yay recognition!

i graduated last thursday!
its finally over, all the stressing out about it.
angela and my parents were there.
hasan and i set up our portfolios near eachother.
i got to graduate with honors, with a deans award.
my portfolio got best of show, im not sure its really worth it though.
angela and my parents and i went olive garden after the ceremony
and we drank wine.

my website is done
http://www.rawideas.net

a work we made a web cartoon during our down time.
it was made to announce the new website.

http://www.ncoast.net/jimmy/

aim isnt working for me lately, its kinda irritating.
portfolio and graduation soon. worry sorry stress tired.

im sick of all this bullshit

i made this website, about 80% id say. maybe 90. i felt accomplished, now i feel like a waste again.
let me know what you think. id strongly sugest a broadband connection and a decent computer.

http://www.ncoast.net

if anyone out there needs a website, im cheap, use me.

im dried up,

school, homework, work 32 hours a week, laundry needs to be washed, cleaning, online classes, a somewhat pathetic birthday alone, carpet needs to be vaccumed, chain smoking, fighting, feeling worthless, insomnia, lonely, graduation, falling asleep at 4am, sleeping in till 3pm on weekends, working on portfolio layouts(every single one i hate), eating microwaved frozen food, dinner in a can, missing people, heacaches, late homework assignments, drinking alone, dilusions of persecution, dishes in sink since weeks ago, uneasy about my future, alone, uncomfortable, guilt, need a haircut, masturbation, nothing on tv, cant talk to people, worried about money, my 85 degree apartment, drinking water becuase theres nothing else, fire alarms going off all night, need to learn how to drive, whiney, being annoying, sucked dry of creativity, cold showers, people being better at being a bf then me, being a crappy friend, tv has been on for days, dizzy from heat, getting dressed with nowhere to go, extreme hatred towards others, lost, waking up at 6am every day, dont want to go out, loud annoying people with lots of friends outside, gaining weight, loosing weight, and another day closer to death.

so any of these designs worth going with for portfolio?
http://www.rawideas.net/images/test2.jpg
http://www.rawideas.net/images/test3.jpg
http://www.rawideas.net/images/type2.jpg

finally, i saw the banners i made on yahoo:

ncoast client page:
http://www.ncoast.net/clientpage

ncoast main page (very incomplete)
http://www.ncoast.net/sitetest

ncoast contact page:
(page withheld to protect the innocent)

edmc art institute banners for colleges.com:
(not online at the moment)

edmc art institutes banners for yahoo, college bound, petersons, and apogee (incompleted):
http://www.ncoast.net/aibanners2/

To begin.. To begin... How to start?... I'm hungry... I should get coffee. Coffee would help me think... Maybe I should write something first, then reward myself with coffee... Coffee and a muffin... So I need to establish the themes. Maybe a banana nut... That's a good muffin.

ehh, today sucked

i have time to update before class, and i actually have news.

good bye WQED, hello North Coast Communications. ncoast is a video post production firm about two blocks from my school. i had an interview yesterday and they hired me on the spot. i start in about 5 days.

the inside of this place is amazing, whoever decorated it might have been a little eccentric but i reallly dig it. the atmosphere is very coffee lounge feeling. very hip. there are all these TV screens outside of their casing, just the internals, hanging from cielings. They have a chef come in everyday to make lunch for peope. free lunch! i quite possibly have found the most perfect place to intern at.

and now for the bad part, they want a very fash oriented site. and im not the best at flash. im a little stressed out about it. i know i can do this, but it will be a lot of hard work. all last night i did research on flash and brainstorming. anyways, im off to class.

i threw this portfolio together for a photography student.
designed by jeff zoet, put together and buggered up by me.

http://www.rawideas.net/cptest/cherylportfolio.html

you need shockwave, around 5.6mb
and know it was designed for cd not the web so no guarentees.

go nuts.

Someone has a baby on the bus. Its crying, and it smells. I hate greyhounds with a passion.

I need to do quite a few things, I guess I have to change gears into productive mode. I need to call north coast communications and see if they still want an intern. I need to draw more computer art. I gotta build up a nice portfolio.

I miss angela already.